I decided to write about being overwhelmed. It's very odd because when you start to do stuff and it begins to consume your life you don't actually realize you've fallen down a hole of taking care of everyone else except YOU until it's too late! That's kind of where I am right now. I'm tired, exhausted and yet I'm running around doing so much for everyone and yet i feel like I'm on auto-pilot...and not in a happy way. I have moments of loving or yet enjoying what I'm doing. Yes I do enjoy those moments that I do for others but then I come back to the list of things I want to do for me and I find I have absolutely no energy for any of it. It is very frustrating for me because I have more dreams and aspirations that I plan on fulfilling. I even have my own timeline of when I would like to achieve those things and sometimes I feel like I am running out of time, like I can her the clock ticking. It sometimes makes me sad and frustrated I've forgotten to take a step forward. Then I've realized I've set myself up for failure sometimes because I get so consumed with what others want and need and I go out of my way to take care of my loved ones and I keep pushing my dreams aside. Sort of like that to do list you post on the fridge and say to yourself you'll get to it when you have time. Then at the end of the day you've run out of time and you promise yourself you will get to it tomorrow!
How do you stop??? Well it's funny because I'm a firm believer and self fulfillment. I believe if you are NOT happy how on earth can you make someone else happy. I believe in rewarding yourself and making YOU the most Important person in your life because a happy YOU can accomplish anything....So what Happened?? I guess I can blame it on "life Happened" but that's my excuse. Now I gotten to a point where I'm just exhausted. So I figure writing about it might not only be therapeutic but might actually make me stop and take a look at what I'm missing in my life and change. I know I'm not the only person who feels this way and I'd love for you all to add to this discussion and tell me if you've been in this place or if you are in this place and some suggestions on how to break the cycle!! So Click on reply or wall post and lets get some awesome ideas on how to ignite that spark and get me climbing my ambition ladder and try to cross some more things off my dream list.. I look forward to hearing from you all soon :)
xo Cath
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